When is it going to rain again?

A tired mind. A tired Heart.
A loss of words for something special and close to my heart, frustrated with myself.
my fears are taking over me. They are becoming more real with every day.
I wish to walk among the lilies and smile with one perfect Lilly placed behind my left ear. with my sun dress twirling about.
free and beautiful
a way of wonder beaming from me with radiance and beauty
what is true beauty?
speak your mind and what's in your heart.
to want something more... no longer. It walks away
Still hasn't turned back.
the rain falls on me, as I sit there, without. Peace is no longer.
A storm has occurred.
Still have not yet gone inside away from it. Watching and hoping that is will disappear.
But all that happens is that the storms increases in strength.

A life that seems to be lived out of the box. to be different, to be a follower of the united force of believers
walking through a tired day with little things to go by
Road signs-warning me. telling me and guiding me.
the ways of the world are slowly caving in on me. not really knowing when and where everything is
my world is being tipped slowly
I just want to stand up straight and see the world clearly.
wishing that the world was not so cruel, and that my heart was no so broken and trashed. I deserve the best

wandering in the dark

tense. scared. alone. weary.
I feel these when life gets difficult and things become unclear. I feel as if there is no where to go.
Cramped up in a small place. Figuring out which way is up. Confused by what the world is telling you. All you want is the answer. I want to know the answer. Greedy i become and no longer do I trust.
I again give my life and my desires to the Father.
No longer do i want to try and control the outcome.

no longer mine

I have given everything to the Father. I can not do this on my own. Slip through my fingers for I never had hold on anything in the first place. I stand firm in my decision knowing that the Lord will bring it around in due time.
The dance will soon be here and I will not have to worry any longer

nothing is in my hands

black and white

I don't have much to say. Because pictures are worth a thousand words. And whenever I look at this picture i just sit and think. And I begin to dream. Dream about the days when I was a little kid.

peace

we all want more than just peace. We are looking for a way out.
Peace is great and all but an answer to life is really what we need and want.

a beauty lies within all of us. When we find it is when our beauty shines.

I want to shine from the inside out with beauty and love.
To have both is to glow with radiance.

Awaiting the next dance.

Awaiting the next dance and wishing and praying that this one will last forever.
Sitting in the chair i see across the room a smile at me. He just smiles for now. But one day I hope he asks me to dance. Im wearing my most precious gown and my hair is done just right. He comes and sits next to me. My heart jumps hoping this time it must be real. But instead he just asks how I am doing. How my day was. The normal small talk starters. I wasn't sure how to react. I was upset but happy. Sad but glad. He treated me the upmost respect. Something I haven't had before. I was shocked, not sure what to do. I just sat there waiting. I am still sitting here waiting. He still smiles at me from across the room. Waves at me. In between of what I would hope to be a dance he walks by me and talks with me.
I WANT TO DANCE!!! I just want to be twirled and dipped and held close. I want him to look at me like I am the only girl in the world. Why can't we just dance? What is taking him so long? I know I must wait, but until then I will look from afar and smile back at him hoping he will see the sparkle in my eye. Because he put it there.

I will dance. I choose to dance.
When you ask me to dance I will not only dance with you but run to you.
Look at me with those eyes I could melt into a million pieces.

I am awaiting the music.

Stars

Closer to the stars is a thrill. the open sky above you and al you think about is why so beautiful?
The beauty within the stars is breath taking.
Trying to catch a star between your hands but it never seems to work. You feel as if beauty if always just beyond your grasp.
You want it. You need it.
But you can't seem to figure out how to get it.
So you try everything to get you there. You still feel a yearning for those stars. and you never seem to get them
There is one way. There is one person who thinks you are just as beautiful as the stars probably even more.
Your Heavenly Father. You are his star. His precious star that shines at night. And we all know that there is always night time somewhere.
So you shine through the night all the time.

I want to be the star that beams.

I surrender

I give my life and my dreams to the one who put them on my heart in the first place. The creator of life.
I am running through life not knowing where to turn.
Questions stirring inside me nudging to come out. Who is going to answer them?

Take a day at a time and breath when necessary. Where do i place my anger? When do I forgive and when do I forget?
Am I suppose to just let everything go and not worry about it?
How am I suppose to wake up the next day and know everything is going to be okay? Will I ever be able to trust again and know that I won't be hurt?
A walk through forgiveness. The Lord has given me so I shall give to others.

Toes in the sand
A book in hand
And the waves crash the shoreline
A peace from Above,
refreshed and renewed from my Heavenly Father.

Life is different now.

Spend a summer around kids. and your life will be different. Step out of the box which you are known for. Be someone different, do something different.
Only you can change the outcome of your life and how it plays out. Be a leader, and if not be a servant and be an example of what a great follower is and how it is to be done.
Never say no to something just because its something you don't usually do. Try something new. You never know, that could be the one thing that will change your life forever!

Be diverse in your ways. Try something new. Be someone great.
Capture life <3