A little bit confused

When you are not sure yet if you want to surrender to those feelings. Trying right now to just ignore them but they are starting to bang on the door. I am not able to get away from them. I am starting to worry that this will just build up and then one day I will not be able to hold it in any longer. Then I really will not know what I should do with everything.
Continuing down this road may result into something I may not know where it will end. I am not saying that this is something bad because I do believe that this is nothing but good!
Really trying to understand why I feel this way. Why my heart has been captivated. Oh I have no idea.

Keep stronghold on my heart. Not letting it easily be swayed towards something that could lead toward destruction.

Yeah I am confused.