Paintings below

The paintings below, I did do those myself. Incase you were wondering.
I have fallen in love with painting all over again!


Time has taken things away but has brought new 'things' in my life.
Struggles have been present but anything is possible with Faith. I believe in never giving up on the dreams that are present in my life. I wish to never back down.

Standing tall and knowing who I am. Pride.
I want to change, in that I stand up for myself and fight the battle right then.

live. laugh. love

a new day

its been a while.
looking from one end to the next of this room where i am seated for the time being.
What am I doing here?
Here for my thoughts and beliefs to sit in the room and soak into the walls.
The abstract feeling seep through my skin and form a painting.
titled "prisoner to myself"

a smile

to whom do I owe this great pleasure?
My smile who sits beside me awaiting to talk. I look at it in the eyes of whom look so familiar. They are my own. I see what it is like to be happy. I long to be one with that happiness once again.
When I see my smile looking at me she says to me. O How i have missed your soft face and your sweet laugh. I want you back.
The loneliness sets in once again and all I see is a melancholy look upon my face. Wishing to see my eyes light up whenever I am excited and unable to speak my joy. Where have I gone? How have I survived all these years with this mask that is painted upon my face. To whom can I turned to?
Who will help me destroy the painting that is plastered upon my face? None other than the creator himself. He has the brush and the paints.

The world of an artist should be filled with unseen things and a world where miracles can happen.
I wish to be the artist who changes the name of art and brings art back together with whom it belongs to. The Lord who reigns on high.

yay

im finished with the first semester of school.
so exciting! I really am so glad that it is Christmas break!
I love Christmas..
I have been inspired to sketch more! And I am having the time of my life! just letting my imagination run wild..
sketching my life out. is what I like to call it!
So yeah things are pretty crazy!
this concludes my blog.

party in my head

School is finished for the semester and I am so excited about Christmas!!
I really never thought I could do it. School I mean. College. It was hard, but I really did learn a good bit about myself and I am so grateful about that!
There are just some things in life that you will never know until you try them. and you never know you will probably learn more than you thought.
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i love this...

The Lord Reigns

When things seem like there is and will be no hope. Just stop and look around you. A computer. A blanket. Food. Clean Water.
We are so blessed to have such things. Whatever you are complaining or upset about it isn't even worth it or it doesn't even compare to other problems in the world. We are a blessed country. Be thankful
The Lord is so Great!!

The Lord has been showing me some amazing things right now in my life!
With a relationship that I have with someone. as friends. Prayer is such a beautiful and personal thing. A sacred moment in time when you are conversing with your creator. WOW! How amazing is that?
I can not even fathom such greatness!!
I love being free with myself and with God. To be honest with him is such an honor. Every time I talk with God and praise his name all I can think about it is how amazing this is that I am able to talk and have an intimate relationship with my creator.

The Lord is super fantastic amazing!!
I love Him!

tired..

Why do things always happen the same way?
Wanting more! What is so wrong with that.
My heart can only handle so much ping pong. To walk the day and find out at the end that the entire time you had been walking towards one destination. Your entire path was mislead. What to do then? I don't know. Tired of being mislead by myself and others. I just wish that this time things were going to truthful and no where near something that could have never been.
I will now walk completely confident in something I don't even know to be true. I just wish all of this was over.
to be not in my hands.
I want it no longer!!

I wish to know...

The Battle

of mind body and soul.
spiritual battles are engaging in three ways. Physical, Emotional and Spiritual.
There are many different kinds of battles that happen every day in everyone's lives.
The battle of waking up in the morning and whether or not to be in a good mood. You have decisions to make within yourself that can cause you to have a battle or not.
Where would we be if we had no battles in our lives. The thrill some of them take us on. and others can come close to destroying our lives if we let them to.
The decisions we have is who wins or who loses.
We have the decision how the battle will resolve we have the power of who loses and who wins. We must decide how we are going to act upon situations that come into our lives. To Conquer the battle is the challenge but to learn from it is Victory that cannot be taken away from you.
Take the lessons that are given to you and learn from them and never forget them as long as you live.
For this is important in all aspect of your life.

Life...

is precious. Why must we take things for granted?
I smile because I am a miracle. Everyday I wake up and I am alive I realize that my purpose is here and now today. Each day that I am alive lies a new purpose. Whether it is smiling to someone or encouraging someone with their day.
To not let back with anything. To know that at the end of the day everything was perfect and makes sense in the end.
Let things fall where they may. Taking a risk. Jumping into a world of the unknown.
To stand within a world where you will be judged because of your kind acts is something worth telling. Because people who do things because they care is a rare thing. To want to help those who are in need and not seeking self satisfaction but simply to put a smile on those around you.
We must not be ungrateful for what we have and what is around us.
There are things in our life that we are capable of and others aren't We are so blessed here where we are. We have clean water. We can drink our water and not get diseases. Life should be looked at from a different perspective. Look at life through others lives.
Maybe then will we appreciate what we have been given.
Give thanks to whom has blessed us.

What is Love?

True love comes from my heavenly Father and only him.
I strive to become the best woman of God that I can possibly be.
Love is personal. Love is patient and kind. Does not envy.
Love is everything that you want to be. Love is something that pushes you to be the best.
Love is indescribable.

Love is to be patient when it seems like it is impossible.
Never loose sight of why things the way they are.

Thanksgiving

Towering over me is my brother. Macy's thanksgiving day parade. Everyone grab your own blanket and sit in front of the television for three hours watching the parade and as Al Roker says "Let's have a parade" The parade has started and throughout the parade we are all sitting around eating french toast and drinking orange juice and then when santa arrives in the parade the Christmas season is finally here and then it is ok to listen to Christmas music and put up your lights.
Then the preparing of the food the constant smell of every kind of food imaginable.
Sitting around watching Christmas movies all day.
We will put up the Christmas tree and exterior illuminations.
The constant thankfullness is what gives us the smiles that are on our faces.

Thankful

Understanding that life is not guaranteed. Taking the little moments in life and making sure that we capture them.
When looking at someone and making sure that we smile at them.
Hold sand in your hands and trying to fathom how much sand is on one beach.
Pondering on how amazing God is and everything that He has done for us to make sure that we can survive.

Take a trip with someone you love and take tons of pictures and write down everything that happens. Talk about old times and Make new memories.
Tell people how much you care about them and what they mean to you.

Don't let time slip through your fingertips.

well this is how it is

a writing sensation that runs through my blood only to run out through my fingertips to the words that I am writing.
If only you knew what joy it brought me.
Other than writing what is running through my mind at the moment.
Today has been absolutely wonderful! I have enjoyed the quiet times that I have had and almost running out of gas on the highway. and running away from rapests yesterday.. haha..college is great!
For real though the opportunities that have been given to me have been incredible! Just the fact that I am alive and breathing today is a miracle in itself.

I dream of the unthinkable. To never give up with anything that I have started. Oh how I love everything that God has put in my life! There are just no words to explain the way I have been feeling :)

Randomness

to walk across life with 10 pounds boots on my feet.
Saved by grace and now I am ice skating with a smile planted on my face.

Life has made more sense in the past couple days than in my whole life. God has revealed more to me than ever!
He has shaped me into who I am today! I am a diamond being refined by the maker.

sweet sound of family

sleeping in late, watching movies all night and eating as much as you can in one full day! Laughing until you cry. and crying until you laugh!
The family who whines together dines together. A quote by the great poet Maxine.
Best part of family is knowing that no matter what happens they will always be there for you. Always cheering you on! And most of all they will always love you!

The afternoon breeze

Sitting by the bay wondering how could life get any better than this?
These questions stir around within the complexity of my brain. I sit and wonder and wait upon the stars and the moon to rise as the sun falls beneath the earth. The hours pass and still my eyes are fixed upon the sky. These stars are shining with radiance. They are so inviting to a dream world where i have once lived. But now I am here walking through the rubbish of this old world, but making a marvelous day everyday only because of the creator i serve and how amazing wonderful is was of him to create this home that i call earth.

Lay beneath the rain. As each drop of water hits your body you want more and more to dance. You stand up and and chase the satisfaction of the smile of being able to dance like no one is watching.

Don't let anything hold you back from becoming who you are made to be.